Wednesday, February 23, 2005

RM 5..


i received this from a fren of mince..
and its the story of money..money...money...



Jalan di situ berlopak-lopak besar,terhinjut-hinjut
toyota ini dilambung graviti. Ery duduk disebelah sudah berapa kali
bangun tidur, dengkurnya makin menjadi. Siaran radio sekejap berbunyi,
bercampur-campur. Sekejap radio perak, sekejap kedah mengikut lambungan kereta
lagaknya.

Aku terpaksa memperlahankan kereta melalui satu
perkampungan nelayan yang kotor, beberapa budak-budak kecil dengan muka
yang comot dan hingus kering di muka berlari-lari. Seorang daripadanya
tidak berseluar langsung,geli. Ada orang tua berbasikal mengangkat tangan memberi
salam. Aku menaikkan cermin kereta, melepaskan rengusan garang.

Ery sudah bangun, mengesat-ngesat mata, menggeliat
kasar. Mengeluarkan bunyi seperti kerbau. Perempuan sial, sopannya cuma
didepan jantan,tersipu-sipu dan bersimpuh malu. Hipokrit ini
cuma tahu bersolek dan berdandan bila mahu keluar, di rumah dia seperti
perempuan baru beranak,t-shirt goboh dengan kain pelekat senteng
dan rambut usai seperti orang gila, mengeluarkan bau hapak dan
masam.

Ada sebuah jeti buruk disitu. Beberapa nelayan baru
sampai dari laut disambut peraih-peraih buncit. Memunggah ikan. Ery
sudah separuh menggelepar diluar meliar mata mencari Shafik,
tunangnya. Aku duduk sahaja di dalam kereta. Aku bencikan pantai hanyir
seperti ini. Beberapa gadis bertudunglabuh lalu dengan menaiki basikal dan
memberi senyuman. Aku menghempas pintu serta merta. Memang benar.
Perempuan kolot seperti mereka itu, patutdijerukkan saja di tempat busuk ini.Tolol!

Kemudian, datang seorang tua menghampiri tingkap
belakang. Aku sedikitmarah, mengetap bibir.

"Nak apa?!" A

Dia terketar terkejut, sedikit berundur.

" Assalammualaikum nak, pakcik ambil upah cuci
kereta.."

Dia bercakap dengan pandangan yang tumpah ke
kakinya, tertib dan seperti takut. Di tangannya ada satu baldi buruk air sabun
dengan tuala koyak di bahu. Baju kemeja kusam koyak di poket, cuma
dibutang dua menampakkan dadanya yang leper ditolak tulang selangka. Seluar
hijau pudar senteng. Tidak berkasut dengan kuku hitam dan kaki yang
reput. Menjijikkan!

" Basuh sajalah, tapi, awas!! Kalau calar kereta
aku,tahulah macamana aku nak ajar kau!!"

Berkata sambil meliarkan mata pada Ery yang tengah
tersengih-sengih meramas-ramas tangan dengan tunangnya itu. Duduk
pula bersimpuh,membelai-belai rambut. Boleh pula kaki
yang asyik duduk terkangkang di rumah itu di tutup rapat.

Orang tua itu tertunduk-tunduk mengucap terima
kasih. Ah, miskin seperti ini tunduk-tunduk meminta simpati, tiada maruah.
Terus saja dia menggosok satu demi satu tayar kereta. Memberus
sambil terbatuk-batuk, meludahkan kahak hijau. Pengotor, sial! Aku
mengalihkan mata ke pantai. Peraih berdekah ketawa menepuk-nepuk belakang
nelayan kurus itu. Menyerahkan beberapa ringgit. Nelayan itu tersenyum
pahit. Menyelitkannya di celahkopiah. Itulah, siapa suruh
kecil-kecil tidak mahu belajar pandai-pandai,masuk universiti dan kerja besar.
Tidaklah hidup susah seperti itu. Bodoh!!

" Sudah nak!!" Pakcik itu datang setelah 20 minit.
Aku sudah malas hendak memandangnya, dan kuhulurkan sahaja RM 5. Aku
rasa itu sudah cukup lumayan untuk fakir seperti dia.
Cepat-cepatlah dia pergi. Tapi, sebaliknya dia memegang lama duit itu. Tunduk dan
menangis tersedu-sedu. Menambahkan kerut dan mengelapmata dengan hujung
kemejanya.

"Kenapa ni? Gila?!"

" Nak, seumur hidup pakcik hidup susah ini, pakcik
kerja memetik kelapa,mencuci tandas di restoran, kemudian mencuci
kereta, belum pernah pakcik terima upah sebanyak ini. Paling banyak pun
hanya seringgit." Dia bersungguh-sungguh melihat ke dalam mata aku.

Timbul pula sedikit simpati, sedikit sayu. Rasa yang
tidak pernah bertakung dalam hati keras aku selama 25 tahun ini.
Dia melipat kecil wang itu diikat simpul di dalam sapu tangan biru
muda. Pergi dengan terhinggut menangis dengan baldi buruk ke arah
sekumpulan nelayan. Aku memandangnya dengan pandangan kosong. Ini warna
kemiskinan, aku tidak pernah lihat. Aku membesar dalam hutan batu, di kota lumpur. Keras
diselaput wang kemewahan, kemudian keluar dengan segulung ijazah.
Bekerja seperti orang gila untuk duit. Biarlah,kalau
aku mahu bantu, ramai lagi diluar sana. Lupakan saja..

Ery memanggil aku dari sebuah kedai makan di situ.
Hampir 10 minit aku melayan meluat- melihat Ery yang tersipu-sipu
menggagau mee dengan sudu dan garfu. Kemudian, kelibat orang tua itu melintasi
kami, menjinjing dua beg besar hitam berisi barang. Hairan, takkanlah
dengan wang RM 5 dia boleh membeli barang sebanyak itu. Mustahil.
Atau dia memang ada duit tapi,berlagak seperti fakir. Mungkin..
Dengan rasa ragu, aku menghapirinya. Dia memberi senyum lembut dan
akudengan rasa curiga bertanya terus.

" Eh, pakcik. Tadi saya bagi lima ringgit, takkan
dapat beli barang sebanyak ini?" .

Bunyinya seperti meninggi. Pakcik itu seperti
terkejut. Dia diam dan tunduk seketika. Pahit menelan air
liur. Meletakkan dua beg plastik di atas tanah, membukanya satu satu,
perlahan-lahan dan terketar.

Aku terkedu. Terkejut dan malu. Pakcik itu
mengeluarkan sapu tangan tadi dan membuka simpulannya.Wang aku tadi, masih
terlipat kemas.

" Nak, pakcik tahu. Kami ini orang susah, nak. Hidup
seperti najis, dibuang dan ditolak-tolak. Kalian pekup hidung
melihat kami. Ambillah ini semula. Pakcik juga punya maruah.
Kadang-kadang maruah kami lebih tinggi dari kamu orang kaya yang hidup berpura-pura,
menipu orang. Harga diri kami masih kuat. Bila anak menyoal pakcik
seperti tadi, anak telah memijak harga diri pakcik. Anak seperti menghukum
pakcik sebagai orang tual sial yang berpura-pura susah.Ambillah semula,nak."

Pakcik itu meletakkannya di atas tangan aku, dan aku
menolak, berkali-kali. Aku sudah menangis, meminta maaf,
berkali-kali. Tidak mahu menyentuh langsung wang itu, hingga jatuh di hujung kaki.

" Lihat, itulah tempat duit. Di tapak kaki. Duit itu
perlu, tapi jangan sampai ia lebih tinggi dari harga diri. Jangan
sampai duit menjadikan kita angkuh dan bongkak. Pakcik ke sana tadi, tempat
nelayan memunggah ikan.
Pakcik kutip ikan-ikan kembung pecah perut ini yang
sudah dibuang ke tepi.Dengan bangkai busuk ini pakcik sambung hidup
anak-anak pakcik, jangan sampai kelaparan, jangan mati."

Mendatar sahaja suara orang tua itu berkisar-kisar
dengan pukulan ombak.


Dia terbatuk-batuk berjalan, meninggalkan aku dengan
wang lima ringgit di hujung kaki, dua plasik berisi ikan busuk yang
sudah mula dihurung lalat.

Aku terduduk menangis semahu-mahunya. Aku mempunyai
wang yang boleh membeli segala kemewahan dunia. Cuma aku belum mampu
membeli sesuatu yang ada dalam diri orang tua itu.


*"jika tidak dapat apa yang kita suka...belajarlah
utk menyukai apa yang kita dapat.." *SoMeTiMeS GoOd PeOpLe Do EvIl ThiNgs....



well...have u read that?? i guess...u know...the value of money nowadays...
ppl thought money is the solution for all problems in this world..
but hell no!!...dont put money the same level with ur value of life...its such a disgrace!!
when u have more and more money..u will tend to put ur pride and dignity 1st..
u think u are better person than others..with more money...*sigh*..
what happen to this world???? is this the end of the world ?? (we are "umat terakhir" in this world..plzz remind that..)..i guess so...be prepared!!!!....
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Friday, February 11, 2005

PD + Malacca holidaysss..


ohh yeahh babeh...ehehehe..
i juz came back from my holidays at PD with my family..
it waz one hell of fun..just to hang out with them..
sleep + eat + watch dvd + swim...thats all i can do there..
not on earth....i'm thinking abt my programming logics...
all abt fun and take a deep breath + rest...wohooo...!! feel soo greatzz..

1st day - 6/2
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went to my cousin wedding at my "kampung"...klebang, malacca...
we spent few hours there...until the ceremony really begins at 2pm..
then...we headed to town...in searching for great DVD bargain...
fuhhhh..its really cheap there...compared to KL.....less than rm10...
and the quality wuzz damn nice.....
it tooks us around 1 hour to choose the movies...and we bought around 7-9 DVD...
ahahhaa...for our vacation in PD....
then later..headed to PD late evening...check in around 7...

2nd day
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took the opportunity to swim at the resort swimming pool...
but too bad...the facilities wuz not enuff maintenance..
the pool was quite badly maintain...and the place around it same too...
but the good thing abt the resot was that...the accomadation given was good...
the room wuzz nice...the equipment inside the apartment in tip top condition..
next, we had our luch at KFC PD...
and then went to BILION supermarket (ahaha..even bilion in KL never been for)..
shop a few things...such as snack...and mineral water...etc etc..
back at resort..we continue our DVD movies PrimeTime...
and the for dinner...cant remember where...?? but usual one...:)

3rd day
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went for swimming at Blue Lagoon Pantai...
uhhh the place was the BOOOM...the beach in excellent condition.....and u know what...even i went a bit from beach.....my niece *jerit*..."acu...jangan gi jauh nanti tsunami"..aahahahahhahaha.....
and ohh.....only 4 of us was there...since...that time..people were rushing out to the office...ahahahhaa...(early in da morning)...
for Lunch, we had a nice and very nice place...
the food was excellent...its HOT and tasty...
the food that we expected in N9....very traditional one...ulam, masak lemak cili padi, sambal udang....fuhhhh......*cant wait to go there again*...ehehehe..
while later that evening, we had dinner at one of the Nasreen SONGKHLA restaurant near the PD town....the foods also goooood(its only open during nite time)..

4th day
--------
checked out from the resort....
then headed to malacca...ayer keroh...
to pay a visit for CNY celebration for my auntie and uncle...
if u all dont know..my mum ORIGINAL siblings were staying there nearby...
and not too forget...(my mum was given to malay family when she was 2 years old)..
and still she managed to see her mum (late grandma)...5 years ago...
do i have the chinese looks??? ahahaa...i dont think so...eheheheh...


p/s: check my latest pixxies..
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Thursday, February 03, 2005

SMS rulezzz..

Jane is a typical college girl who enjoys life to the fullest. She loves her boyfriend so much
and texts him every now and then.

Mark is Jane's boyfriend who works in a call center in los angeles. He's always busy doing so many
things. He only manage to reply to Jane's texts when he got off from work.

One time mark receive a message from jane : "hi baby! how are you? i miss you! call my house when u
get home..take care! i love you!"

mark ignored the message because he always receive the same message whenever it is
time for him to go home from work.

"baby, i miss you..did u eat yet?! take care when you get home! ill be waiting for your call..i love you!"
"baby, where are you?! its unfair that you dont reply to my texts... well, im just gonna wait for your call..i love you!"

Mark reaches home and lay on his bed. The last time he knew is that he's reading Jane's text.
He was so tired he fall asleep and wasn't able to return jane's call. He can still hear his phone
beeps but he's too tired to take a glimpse on the message.

When he woke up the next day, he remembers that he needs to call Jane. He ignored the
messages and dialed Jane's .. No one's answering in her
house. He called up her cellphone and he was surprised that her father answered the call. In
his voice you can feel his tears and hear his heart tearing apart.

"Mark, why havent you called?. Jane was waiting for your call all night!"
"Dad im sorry. i fell asleep being so tired from work... i was calling ur house but no one was answering. where are you? so i can come over."

"Just meet me at jane's house."
Mark went to Jane's house and much to his surprised he saw a lot of people inside. The house
were so lighted but you can see the gloom on every person you'll meet there. He was
greeted by Jane's mom on tears. She hug him tight and cried on his shoulders.

"Jane was waiting for you. She didnt come with us because she was waiting for your call. She was killed by robbers that broke in our house. Shes gone, Mark. She's gone."

"thats impossible..she texted me..how could this happen!"

Mark can't look who's inside the coffin. He can't
move and it feels like his whole body is stuck on the chair hes seating on. He wanted to cry but it
seems that something is blocking his tears to fall down. He turned to his phone and read the
messages of Jane.

"baby, im not coming with my mom and dad..im just gonna wait for your call.."

"baby..im so scared... it seems like theres someone downstairs..please call me now!"

"babe..someones here..they might kill me..please call me now, where are you? i need you here..."

"baby.... i love you!..."

He wanted to shout and cry so loud. It's true that Jane is waiting for his call. Up to her last
breath she only thinks about him.

He stared at Jane inside the coffin. Suddenly tears starts flowing down his cheeks. He
can't say anything. The only words he uttered...

"My baby, i'm so sorry! I could have known, i could
have fought for you! i'm really sorry! I love you so much!"


p/s:sempat ke nak send SMS time emergency ek??? is it enuff time to think abt it...and whether the msg gonna be arrive to the recipient 5 mins later or 1 hour later...ahahhaa..nobody knowss...especially when the network congested...ehehehehe.. i think u gotta pray to God...and defend urself....true yeah???????...;)
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